Slingerdoo

Lately, I have felt disconnected. My emotions seem to be all over the board, I have very little motivation, my long-term outlook only reaches several hours and I have no real appetite. My attention span only lasts a few minutes past the start of a project, yet every project needs to be done. My priorities are out of whack and I feel like the activities, or jobs, I do are only a diversion - busy work.

The ability to convince myself of the importance in completing work, doing chores and basically getting off my butt has simply vanished. My internal clock is b0rked, and I'm wide awake at 3am, sound asleep by 9am and most active sometime after 3pm. Something's gotta give. I've told numerous people I would call, yet haven't. I've made plans, but only remembered them moments before they start. My physical health has been struggling and I can barely talk right now.

If only I could take a weekend for myself, do nothing, plug myself back in, reboot. No tv, no internet, no phone, no itinerary. If only I could feel like me again.